To be completely honest, I’ve sat in front of my computer for the last half hour trying to figure out how to write this article. So, any words that you read (as are any and all words of mine you’ve ever read) from this point on, are solely from God alone. Because today, I truly don’t have the words to know what exactly to write…
Today started out really good. I got my devotional time in right first thing, I had a game plan set in place as to how I was going to reorganize my clothes and I had a conference call with in regards to publishing my book. Everything was going great! That is, it was until I got the call from said publisher.
To make a long story short, I have been in contact with this publisher for several months. During those months I kept asking them if there were any fees that I needed to know about. Well, after several calls and e-mails over the months, I was told today that there are in fact fees. Two days before I’m due to hand in my manuscript to them.
As you may imagine, I feel very led on. Writing this book has taken a lot of time, effort and emotion. This book is very close to my heart-probably the most cherished of any writing I’ve ever done. Through it, God has healed many wounds and opened up dreams in my heart I never imagined would ever be there. This book is a dream come true-I never thought myself capable of writing a non-fiction book. Never thought that God would lead me in the directions he has. Never thought he’d grow me in my writing and that he would set it as one of my biggest passions and desires.
This morning, while I was in worship and reading my Bible, I felt led to read Psalm 132. And while reading, there was a verse that especially stuck out to me;
“I will bless her with abundant provisions…” Psalm 132:15
It was as if the Lord was whispering to me-even before receiving the phone call- “Trust me. I will provide.”
To which had me asking “How are you going to provide for me to publish this book? It’s not like someone’s just going to randomly give me $3400 to publish with this publisher…”
So, here I sit now, weighing my options; do I wait longer, do I take a different (much cheaper) publishing route? What do I do?
So, with that, I would like to humbly ask you all for prayer for direction as to what I should do now. This book has been a labor of love and at times even spiritually wrestling trying to figure out how to say something and if I should say it at all-or keep it out.
Thank you all for your never-ending support! I appreciate it so much!
With that, I will bid you a good rest of your day, and go grab a cup of tea!